Right in the middle

Am always in the middle always not too crazy not to straight. not too free not to extremism .not to Muslim not to any thing else. and its keeping me tired i become tired of being moderate. I've  become tired of feeling neither accepted from both sides i always feel as if i am the only one in this situation and no one is their for me .this sucks  i don't know what to do i don't want to be like this any more .